you took a wrong turn
down memory lane
found yourself lost
in a world of the insane
where whispers are screamed
and sleeping is a sin
where the days end at noon
and the night soon begin
in a place where the cold feels like hot summer days
and the summer is freezing even with the suns burning rays
where love is blinded
and romance bleeds
and nobody cares about others needs
where silence screams murder
as hearts are hung to die
lost in a world where sarcasm cries
where books are use to prop tables
and words want be read
where laughter bleeds in pity
and there is to much evil to be said
in a place where the week feed off the strong
and forever was buried alive in a song
where beauty is ugly
and hate has more than one face
where the sun is black
and life has no pace
where trust breaks like glass
and time never flies
lost in a world where sarcasm cries
where freedom is bared
and angel tears are black
where sidewalks are broken
and blood seeps from the cracks
in a place where water turns to dust
where love and devotion turn into lust
where tree’s scream in the darkness
and the night talks
where El Salvador’s creatures grow legs and walk
where the good are punished
and the addicted are wise
lost in a world where sarcasm cries
where eyes are yellow
and depression breaths bright
in a place where one will never find light
you took a wrong turn down memory lane
found yourself lost in a world of the insane
there’s no turning back
your in for the ride
a journey to hell
with the devil by your side
in a place where the truth always lies
lost in a world where sarcasm cries 

it’s the stars that show you the way
when life is hard and it’s dark
you cant see the good things that lay ahead
its the strong wind beneath your wings
your dreams
that pick up when you fall down
helping you carry on
its the prayer so strong and deep
lessening the weight of your fears
when everything is messed up beyond belief
its having hope
in a seemingly hopeless situations,
and the numerous moments, memories , and good times
shared with the firends we hold dear
its seeing the sun shinning thrugh on a cloudy day
and having friends whoes smiles and voices can bring joy to a day
full of anguish and pain
its the comforting silence when words just arent needed
its the feeling after talking to a really good friend
a watching all your fears fly away
its the knowledge that tomorrow is full of possiablities
oppertunaties to achieves your dreams
knowing that you can do whatever your heart desires
its the feeling that someone loves you today and forever
living a happy life with a happy heart
and everyday of every year sharing it.
its knowing that no matter how lonely you are
you are never alone
its haveing all these gifts of life and not taking them for granted
because you know that its these gifts that are missed
the most when they are gone

A solem rose
stands alone
the dew drops falling like tears
each droplet crying its own river
continue living, giving, but never forgiving,
pursuing a lie she cant let go
emotional attachment
hidden under illusions
loving, losing,  surviving…..
but she’s lying
a new life created through deception
a false start,
a forged rebirth
fears crashing through the walls of her soul
as the cotton moon rises in the sky
the silvery moon resembling the charm on the bracelet that she wore
a present from a destined love
that abandoned her long ago
she clings to the jewelery
like an infent clutches to he rmother
crying for the way things use to be the days when his arms embraced her
and sheilded her from the storms
protecting her from the fear of the bolts of light
as he helped her to see its beauty
thunder sounds as he makes promises
he never intened to keep
she foolishly kept his hopes alive
where love and honesty lay dead
all reason and sanity
showing her the proof!

If i was a little girl
i would tell you the same thing
that sad little whispers dont get you nowhere
and a walk down the road
with your little black coat
doesnt mean your on a path to somewhere
and if you woke up
thinking you got anywhere but here
your in for a very tragic ending
you only go where the trouble wants to take you
and if thats where you are
then thats all you’ll ever know
i never was the one to limit my chances
but if i ever had one
i would give it all to you
because my darkened sky has never brightened
and there’s a chance that maybe
you would know what to do…
and just because you cry
doesnt mean you will notice a thing
even thought all your tears are asking
is for someone to wipe them clean
and i know you’ve been out there
looking for your answers
but there are to many questions
that are more worthy of time
there are to many people who tower above you
so you sit at the bottom
with your music on repeat
and you wait for and you wait for a time you will get your chance
lonely little girl,
i promise you nothing
but your in for a lifetime of waiting
so sink into your pillow
and drift yourself away
because there aint no blue skies coming yourway
a if i was a little girl
i would say the same thing
no matter how loud you scream,
they wont notice a thingand when your lost in your dreams
try not to be found
because reality will hurt you more than you think
and if you cant fall asleep
then smoke your day away
and burn your tongue with another drink
its a short story i know
but the ending is tragic
and i dont know if you can handel another being told
because you’re already busy
with your happiness and joy
to listen would be a burden on your day
so run into your reality
ill stay with my pillow,
my thoughts and my dreams
and if i was this little girl
i would tell you all the same thing
that these sad little whispers
are louder then they seem….

Tainted torture,

mistakes long unsaid.

haunting memories,

like a hunger left unfed.

Honesty’sillusion,

nightmares haunting threw each day.

Guilty conscience,

i still mean those words i said.

overflow and dripping,

feed me with your tears.

kiss like you always,

leading me with malicious leers

a heartfelt,

liquid crystal

draining from each word.

As i hear our careless past,

our unknowns will at least be heard.

A prick to my patched heart,

a rip of yours in two.

Love breaks and heart Cries.

Yet,

i still love you!

You walk in

and everything changes,

all there is are you and i

you being the magner that evinces all feeling and thoughts of me

the desire you produce in me is inexplicable.

The beauty of your gorgeous eyes.

The strength you emit,

your humor,

your love,

all hiding behind the facade of anger and insouciency.

you tell me you want me,

all because i smile,

and if i refuse,

you leave;

walk away from me.

But how can i choose when your sole prensence

elicits the most amazing feelings of pleasure and bliss.

Your body next to mine,

your hand on mine,

your eyes on mine-

How do i control myself when you hold me and all i want to do is stay there forever

How do i control myself when you put your hand on my face

and the look in your eyes

and the words from my lips scream for me.

and yet i refuse

so what can i do then,

but sit idly by and let you slip away back into yourself

but if i do that

will you let me forget you???

im fat,
im thin,
im out,
im in,
im lost,
im found,
im up high,
im on the ground,
im safe,
im scared,
im not prepared
decend into the cold
watch my life unfold

These temporary fixations
are weakening me
into nothing,
but
a soulless encounter
and it takes all of my strenght
just to lift my head
and look into your eyes
can you see the eagerness
or are you stuck on the tears i cry?
there is this constant battle within myself,
do i dare surrender?

HAPPY NEW YEARS

well it would of been new years but i just got off work so its like an hour pass but happy new years anyways

MERRY  CHRISTMAS
      EVERONE!!