Its a lonely start
to a broken heart
death wishes filled with venom
but im learning
anothers way to rip me apart
so dont make life look so pretty burning
wake up now
its over
just tell me when its ok to die
my heart is hiding
running for cover
holding back tears i cant cry
just because i put on a look
but im scared
terrified inside
of trusting someone enough
to read my torn book
and find what secrets i hide
i came so close to hermony
the shock is almost to much to bear
that my life got knocked back into insanity
and the secrets are beginning to wear
wake up now
its over
just tell me when its ok to die
my heart is hiding running for cover
holding back tears i cant cry
if i could erase the distance
when i place myself far from you
then maybe it would make a difference
in the outcome of what to do
wake up now
its over
just tell me when its ok to die
my heart is hiding runnning for cover
holding back tears i cant cry

the music floats
gentley playing
its silvery and soothing notes
glide through the air
designed in this medium to share
an artist thought
like its counterparts
in words or actions
warm emotions
couple of cold reactions
unbetraying
as the listner is told
the history of though
is process and philosophy
and how its bearer sought
to weed out its descrepencise
and light its darkened statment
the music floats
its constant and unerring notes
gentley wear away the amor set
supossed to quard from shame
with arrogance
but rather lets it pass
and these emotions
once so well guarded
flow
and with this song and verse departed
steals a bit of the makers soul
and the ablity to bury it
in a dark and awful hole
but
this vulnerablity is shared
by makers and listners
if unprepared
for
when the public
enamored by the music
that the listner hates
she crawls back in the hole
and the love for song abates

she sat on a bench
alone
encompassing
compassionate
it sang her lullaby
the sky wasnt black yet
but the time was right
dark blue clouds stalking a dark blue sky
she felt the world
her';s
all around her
pressing
holding
it helped her finsd the truth
the wind blue
whispered
and she knew the story
she knew the story
she longed to hear
unfolding
she was the world
there was no light
except
the moon hafe hidden in the pain
the tears roolled down her cheeks
strong
broken
she knew she couldnt
and she was alone
the cool wind blew her hair
off her face as she gazed to the stars
she's not excellence
but a tear in heaven

life,
you live, you die
through the good and bad
remember the best times that you ever had
follow your dreams
if you wake up in a nightmare
there's no need to scream
do what your heart tells you
hope that someday
all your wishes will come true
live like your going to die
not knowing
if you'll have another chance to say good bye
dance if you want to dance
live
althou some others no longefr have the chance
dont live your life foolishly
forever ones life will end with an inevitable death
so make it worth it

keep your head
because the sky is the limit
tell me one thing that you focuse on
the thing that keeps your sanity
when things go wrong
stay true to yourself when no ones true to you
keep the men who have a purpose in your life
and move away from the ones who try to bring you down
stay up

so anyways friday was my 21st birthday ive had a blast this past
weekend i had 600 to spend came back with 208 left over anyways friday
we went to the highschool football game had a blast then saturdasy we
went to my favorite mall shopped all damn day and went to eat at this
restraunt called rockfish its delicious they screwed up my order twice
so we ended up getting it freee which was a plus seeing as how it was
expensive. anyways then sunday we went to six flags it was great ate at
cheeders that nite then back to work yesterday asll and all it was
great