You haunt my soul
trying to escape you
screaming out
to let you go
crying these tears
trying to forget
all that you mean to me
trying to get away
from the thought of you
not knowing
you caused all my pain
you leave my thoughts
i finally escape from you

I can be
the pills you take
I can be
the glass you break
i can be
the tears rolling down your cheeks
i can be
the wound that weeps
i can be
the one who with you sleeps
i can be
your water
keeping you so pure
i can be
the one you run away with
far away from the shore
i can be
your secret
the one who never tells
i can be
your scar
that holds your cuts together
I can be
your bandage
hiding your weeping wounds
I can be
everything
if everything is good enough for you

clear blue skies
pretty butterflies
flying high
whats it like to die?
up above,
whats waiting for me?
down here
no one cares
dont know why
im here today
flying high
so peacefully
divening down
let me be
would anyone notice
the darkening skys
with no good byes

these crystal eyes
drown my pain
in ice cold tears
caused from the wrong ive done
im not usually the one
to break my own heart
ive pushed you down
and its torn me apart
its cut us both so deep
and it seems like the top
is much to high to reach
but i got to get us there
ill do whatever it takes
push aside
each and every fear
ill hold you close and tight
promise you
i'll make this right
cause i want to see a smile
pain itself across your face
listen to your laugh
and feel my heart race
watch the sparkle in your eyes
then kiss you softly
and whipe away your tears
till all your pain
disappears

when tomorrow doesnt arrive
tell me what you plane todo
if something happened and you died
how would people remember you?
if the sun faded in the sky
never to rise again
would days of pain go bye and bye?
or would he forget your sins?
would your family know you loved them?
or would they just remember hate
would they arrive on time to say good bye?
or would they be running a little late?
would your siblings know your sorry
for all the teasing and tears
or is that all they would remember
never to forget through out the years
but
just in case this happens
remember what i do
i never begin
or end a day
without saying the words i love you
to the ones who matter the most

can anybody hear me
 im breathing slow
im breathing deep
id like you to know
im watching your text
im hearing your voice
im seeing your smile
im losen my choice
running around
in your skantily clad
im sitting alone
i should be glad
your haven fun
thats good,
thats cool
im only one
thats life
its cruel
so many faces
you choose and pass
gone by me
im standing last
and im the one
that could hold you back
im the one
with a life that lacks
im the one
that no one could tame
the one
that has no name

in this place
with in these walls
there is nothing
nothing and everything
silent crys
yelling without voices
emotionless faces
years of pain held be hind simles
arrogent egos standing strong
chemical induced happyness
itll only last a little while
before it brings you down again
further then you were before
do they see what i see ?
there is hope somewhere
there is life beyond this place
beyond this moment
beyond this wall

he looks at all the pretty girls
he lust for all the pretty girls
he says she is his pretty girl
she feels like such an ugly girl
he kisses all the pretty girls
he holds all the pretty girls
she thought she was his pretty girl
she feels like such an ugly girl
she hates all the pretty girls
he loves all the pretty girls
he slowly kills his pretty girl
she was such a lonely girl

hiding behind these padded walls
its a life to live, where velvet falls
no more crying
hush now my dear
go to sleep
no more to fear
hush now, go to sleep
ill hold you through the storm
in this world i have created for us
in this world we can never live in
to many stone walls
to many thorns
no way to make it home
come and save me
hush now my dear
go to sleep
no more to fear
hush now, go to sleep
ill hold your through the storm
wake up and open your eyes
the sun is shinning bright
your face glows
your smile fades the sun
in this world i have created for us
in this world we can never live in
i will burn it, brake it, take it, steal it,
drown it, fake it, anything it takes
hush now my love
smile now my love
die now my love
i will hold you
hush now
and go to sleep

well let me turn this table around
and sit down to face this unknown
let me gaze into those brown eyes
tell me your secrets
even if they are lies
dont scare me away
with your spurious decisions
that affects my every move
are you here with me
or have you lost that motive
ive gone away for the nite
i might stay there forever
lost in this dream of life
and trading my future for never
come fly with me
isnt that what my future is adding up to
i dont wish to fly
i dont wish anything
but to be where i am suppose to be
but where is that
i cant seem to drag myself away
from this melodramtic consequence
im sleeping to much
not crying enough
im holding on to
what i believe to be true
but im losen it all
ive lost it all in you