heads turn
as she is brought
down the aisle
thrown before him
her hair tossed
forward and back
her eyes flashing with hatred
he stares in awe and wonder
her exotic face
her slim curves
the defiant toss of her head
as she denys
ever being his
saying
she will die first
he takes her to his bed
her body trembling under his
head thrown back
she cries out
screaming in pain
finished
he traces her spine
with a finger
the smooth skin supples
under his course hands
rolling over
he never wakes
the gaurds find a dagger
his dagger
rich with rubies and diamonds
blood creeping down his cheek
like a tear
she's gone
running far
her feet
blistered and raw
from running
but still
she moves on
never scarred
just wary
caught by another man
another
who find her beauty
intoxicating

Silence Breaks
spells of sound
tension looms
all around
sighs of wondering
sighs of sin
the heart that quickens deep within
quietly closer
quietly brush
eyes meet
and fingers touch
the sparks of love
burns ever bright
in gloom shines
the stary light
and so
with reason
i fail to care
of doey eyes
and messed up hair
then
all that matters
for you and i
is what lies beyound
azure sky
the sky has never
looked so blue
so pure
more then i ever knew
and light be more
untainted so
than sunlight, moonlight, that i know
never more
has my heart beat strong
the feeling lingers
within me long
while eyes are locked
in eternal glimmers
more than stars
my falling heart glitters

how come i can babble on and on about nothing but when i run in to
someone i want to talk to for hours i cant find the right words anyways
its a strange thing sitting there talking about randon stupid shit and
then trying to talk tot he one person you been waiting for and you lose
all track of the stupid random shit mostly cause you dont wanna seem
like a dumb fuck

today im shutting down
princess of ampathy
i will be crowned
no more careing about
being laughed at
being hated
from those who made me scream and shout
i have to stop all these tears
from hiding the truth
all these years
now ill show you what i hide
the demons that have slept inside

i was listening to a song by papa roach and a sentence in it striked me
scars remind us the past is real i love that right there its
intregueing anyways think about it have you every wondered wheater or
not your life is real or your just watching someone else life and
sometimes things that happened just dont seem like they are or should
be happening to you? think aboutit thou you still have scars from past
times scars you wish wernt there weather visable scars are scars left
on your heart there there none the less and you still no the story and
hold the memory of how they got there! anyways theres a guy who strikes
my interest these days but something tells me he isnt interested we
talk occasionally ive known him for years but he never talks to me on
msn really just in the chat room and thats very rarely but anyways he a
good guy and sweet ass hell !
  you every wonder why we work why mindless drons work day in and
day out kissen some stupid ass bosses ass just to make money to make
some money to take out some hot guy or little cute ass honney speaking
of which id love to get me one a nice ass hot guy or just a guy a good
guy someone that want treat me like dirt  ive been single far to
long but  hey i shall keep looking anyways ive been up sents
5:30am !

well to day was hell went to work just to here whinning little people
complain about tarded shit like who there bf is taking to the movies
and why he isnt calling how lame right i hate drama special when im
brought in to the shit anyways yea got written up to i was busy helping
customers and this whinny little thing emily calling my name constantly
over and over like she cant see im busy so im all like WHAT and she
like are the hot dogs done like she cant take her lazy ass to see for
herself right anyways yea the write up said i was being unn civil i
dont care thou they want fire me it will be a year in october but
seriously to make things fair emily should of been written up i mean
seriously how annoying to have some one like a child over and over
again mandi mandi mandi and like damn i had people anyways the mind is
turning in full circle and im venting over stupidty of young folks lol
need to get out more well anyways i must leave you with this irrating
little rant i mean it isnt like anyone reads my shit ive had this thing
sents december and have one comment on anything go figure right anyways
later

Her loud whispers
silent roars
a wound appeared
not there before
a memory told
by a ruby scar
a little girl
her hope now far
a candle wish
burnt out by fear
blinded by
her ice cold tears
will she live?
or will she die?
knock her down
or pass her by
she is lost
inside her dread
her soul hanging
on a thread
smile by day
bleed by nite
asleep at dawn
buried from fright

can you see the mask?
sheltering the truth
behind it they hide
cold and aloof
can you see the maskl?
betached from there soul
a blanket of lies
creeps out of its holes
can you see the mask?
they peer through its eyes
put on there fake smiles
their everyday disguises
can you see the mask?
now crumbling from time
the cracks now appear
from self hatred crime
can you see the mask?
it's put on to cover
pieces of people
hidden from another
can you see the mask?
its on the hard floor
free from face
needed no more

please come to me
can you not feel
me heart beating
for you my love
look into my eyes
can you not see
my soul screaming
for you cant deny
me my love
i can see you in my dreams
i kow you belong to me
does your soul
not scream for mine
you cant hide now
i shall find you
i can feel your spirit
it's all so perfect now
we can be together forever
surrender

dear girl
in the corner
clutching a knife
dear guy
in the basement
searching for the rope
a bad day at school
he just couldnt cope
dear man
down the alley
grasping the gun
fingure pulls the triger
his job is done
dear wife
in the hallway
battered and brusied
her husbands drunk again
he leaves her abused...
Dear mother
in the bathroom
empty medicine bootle
room starts spinning
heartr on the throttle
dear father
on the bridge
watching the waters below
gets ready to jump
as the wind starts to blow
dear child
on the streets
tangled hair of gold
lies down in the snow
hungry and cold....
dear you
reading this
these people never had a clue
dont do it yourself
for
he really does love you