Inching ever slower
to the better way of life
only to be thrown back violently
of one who rants and tears
ever closer
im being pushed
back towards the edge
rocking on my feet
straining to stay up
as the nightmare drains from my eyes
i claw my way to reality
slowly starting to relize
things are only as bad as i make them to be
yet the visions ive seen
always are waiting
for this unlucky teen
to forget her head
and fall back in terror
back into hell
back into peril

the devil yells at me day and night
damnation swallowing all my light
souless sinners dancing round
demons digging in the ground
blackened cloats fill my sight
making me weak
making it night
blood stained sheets in every bed
belonging to the living dead
cracking walls ooze with blood
a pure black lake
a bleeding flood
screeches cutting threw the fire
pitch black eyes with hidden desire
workers wild there battle scares
bloody parts in small jam jars
dancers still make way for him
as he approaches the lights get dim
the preditors close in on there prey
watching them from night tell day
hunting stalking sharpening knives
deciding how
to steal there lives
he comes closer
breathing loud
carrying ariound him one small cloud
lighting strikes as he raises his voice
we all bow now
we have no choice
the devile gives oders day in and day out
teaching us what pain is about
demanding to much of this souless crowd
sitting on his thrown
smitten and proud
cutts we show him across our souls
but he cares not if we are whole
we feel nothing but sadness and pain
we cant even fill the cooling rain
the temperature raises as we work up a sweat
remembering his oders dare we forget
we work for him now not our old lord
we're stuck here in hell
were the damned hang from a cord

between corrupted heavens
and the hells that you creat
weather to jump off yourself
or be thrown without mistake
freezing veins as they may flow
or your body wroung out dry
demons take away your mind
or a loved ones soul to die
chained up in a jail cell full
or set freewith no one else
the choices you make today
arethose you make with no ones help

with complex fucets
the unknowable people
are silently sufficating
they live in there inner thoughts
cursed and blessed
alone
only they know why we are here
treading water
in a pool of ignorance
of sorror
of pain
they discover what the unverse is trully for
in its paculiarity
thinking as others wouldnt dare
we judge there postulations
as mendacious
we've the enamored ones
fearful of whats different
they are not innocent they are simple beautiful
preferring incarceration to livin g with no hope
of world alteration

i read the chronicles
of a wounded soul
of a chameleon mind
that understood
the harshness that makes its toll
the loss
the joy
that maybe could
have more of an estblished seat
ebnterence inside your mind
and how you think your incomplete
and lost in daily boring grind
and now i tell you
more then truths
ill whip away those uunseen tears!
and see?
my gentle hands soothes abloshing your hate and feaR
i read the chronicales
of a shattered heart
the pain of an uncontrolable head
whose chemicals all filt and dart
and make the soul to feel so dead
and so i send my token hear
as you appreciate my soul
my art
and ill earse your fear
and once again
we will both be whole
my sympathy
its not that of the puppeteer who lies above
its simple a kindered soul
who wishes to fix
what was once whole

dont cry over me
im already gone
dont die for me
im already lost
dont prey for me
ill end this right bow
dont delay death for me
ill end this fight now
dont break my heart
its already shattered
dont take my heart
it never really mattered
dont promise me
i know you want keep it
dont deceive me
because in the end you'll reap it
dont take me back
i dont want to hurt you
dont make me snap
because my trust will hurt you

Its a lonely start
to a broken heart
death wishes filled with venom
but im learning
anothers way to rip me apart
so dont make life look so pretty burning
wake up now
its over
just tell me when its ok to die
my heart is hiding
running for cover
holding back tears i cant cry
just because i put on a look
but im scared
terrified inside
of trusting someone enough
to read my torn book
and find what secrets i hide
i came so close to hermony
the shock is almost to much to bear
that my life got knocked back into insanity
and the secrets are beginning to wear
wake up now
its over
just tell me when its ok to die
my heart is hiding running for cover
holding back tears i cant cry
if i could erase the distance
when i place myself far from you
then maybe it would make a difference
in the outcome of what to do
wake up now
its over
just tell me when its ok to die
my heart is hiding runnning for cover
holding back tears i cant cry

the music floats
gentley playing
its silvery and soothing notes
glide through the air
designed in this medium to share
an artist thought
like its counterparts
in words or actions
warm emotions
couple of cold reactions
unbetraying
as the listner is told
the history of though
is process and philosophy
and how its bearer sought
to weed out its descrepencise
and light its darkened statment
the music floats
its constant and unerring notes
gentley wear away the amor set
supossed to quard from shame
with arrogance
but rather lets it pass
and these emotions
once so well guarded
flow
and with this song and verse departed
steals a bit of the makers soul
and the ablity to bury it
in a dark and awful hole
but
this vulnerablity is shared
by makers and listners
if unprepared
for
when the public
enamored by the music
that the listner hates
she crawls back in the hole
and the love for song abates

she sat on a bench
alone
encompassing
compassionate
it sang her lullaby
the sky wasnt black yet
but the time was right
dark blue clouds stalking a dark blue sky
she felt the world
her';s
all around her
pressing
holding
it helped her finsd the truth
the wind blue
whispered
and she knew the story
she knew the story
she longed to hear
unfolding
she was the world
there was no light
except
the moon hafe hidden in the pain
the tears roolled down her cheeks
strong
broken
she knew she couldnt
and she was alone
the cool wind blew her hair
off her face as she gazed to the stars
she's not excellence
but a tear in heaven

life,
you live, you die
through the good and bad
remember the best times that you ever had
follow your dreams
if you wake up in a nightmare
there's no need to scream
do what your heart tells you
hope that someday
all your wishes will come true
live like your going to die
not knowing
if you'll have another chance to say good bye
dance if you want to dance
live
althou some others no longefr have the chance
dont live your life foolishly
forever ones life will end with an inevitable death
so make it worth it