today im shutting down
princess of ampathy
i will be crowned
no more careing about
being laughed at
being hated
from those who made me scream and shout
i have to stop all these tears
from hiding the truth
all these years
now ill show you what i hide
the demons that have slept inside

i was listening to a song by papa roach and a sentence in it striked me
scars remind us the past is real i love that right there its
intregueing anyways think about it have you every wondered wheater or
not your life is real or your just watching someone else life and
sometimes things that happened just dont seem like they are or should
be happening to you? think aboutit thou you still have scars from past
times scars you wish wernt there weather visable scars are scars left
on your heart there there none the less and you still no the story and
hold the memory of how they got there! anyways theres a guy who strikes
my interest these days but something tells me he isnt interested we
talk occasionally ive known him for years but he never talks to me on
msn really just in the chat room and thats very rarely but anyways he a
good guy and sweet ass hell !
  you every wonder why we work why mindless drons work day in and
day out kissen some stupid ass bosses ass just to make money to make
some money to take out some hot guy or little cute ass honney speaking
of which id love to get me one a nice ass hot guy or just a guy a good
guy someone that want treat me like dirt  ive been single far to
long but  hey i shall keep looking anyways ive been up sents
5:30am !

well to day was hell went to work just to here whinning little people
complain about tarded shit like who there bf is taking to the movies
and why he isnt calling how lame right i hate drama special when im
brought in to the shit anyways yea got written up to i was busy helping
customers and this whinny little thing emily calling my name constantly
over and over like she cant see im busy so im all like WHAT and she
like are the hot dogs done like she cant take her lazy ass to see for
herself right anyways yea the write up said i was being unn civil i
dont care thou they want fire me it will be a year in october but
seriously to make things fair emily should of been written up i mean
seriously how annoying to have some one like a child over and over
again mandi mandi mandi and like damn i had people anyways the mind is
turning in full circle and im venting over stupidty of young folks lol
need to get out more well anyways i must leave you with this irrating
little rant i mean it isnt like anyone reads my shit ive had this thing
sents december and have one comment on anything go figure right anyways
later

Her loud whispers
silent roars
a wound appeared
not there before
a memory told
by a ruby scar
a little girl
her hope now far
a candle wish
burnt out by fear
blinded by
her ice cold tears
will she live?
or will she die?
knock her down
or pass her by
she is lost
inside her dread
her soul hanging
on a thread
smile by day
bleed by nite
asleep at dawn
buried from fright

can you see the mask?
sheltering the truth
behind it they hide
cold and aloof
can you see the maskl?
betached from there soul
a blanket of lies
creeps out of its holes
can you see the mask?
they peer through its eyes
put on there fake smiles
their everyday disguises
can you see the mask?
now crumbling from time
the cracks now appear
from self hatred crime
can you see the mask?
it's put on to cover
pieces of people
hidden from another
can you see the mask?
its on the hard floor
free from face
needed no more

please come to me
can you not feel
me heart beating
for you my love
look into my eyes
can you not see
my soul screaming
for you cant deny
me my love
i can see you in my dreams
i kow you belong to me
does your soul
not scream for mine
you cant hide now
i shall find you
i can feel your spirit
it's all so perfect now
we can be together forever
surrender

dear girl
in the corner
clutching a knife
dear guy
in the basement
searching for the rope
a bad day at school
he just couldnt cope
dear man
down the alley
grasping the gun
fingure pulls the triger
his job is done
dear wife
in the hallway
battered and brusied
her husbands drunk again
he leaves her abused...
Dear mother
in the bathroom
empty medicine bootle
room starts spinning
heartr on the throttle
dear father
on the bridge
watching the waters below
gets ready to jump
as the wind starts to blow
dear child
on the streets
tangled hair of gold
lies down in the snow
hungry and cold....
dear you
reading this
these people never had a clue
dont do it yourself
for
he really does love you

a thousand
piontless words
written on a single sheet
simple
though no sense made
the words
a jumble
from the mind
in hope it might be easier
to work with
when it all was down
moments of utter confusion
lacking sanity
the creation of the masterpieces
no simple taske in deed
speaking with an angel
so god might help to
understand the meaning
behind the dreaded words
night falls deeply
throughout it all
no voices can be heard
light isnt seen when
all the things are dark
slumber preys
on waking breaths
shallow
shallow
cannot fight it
drakness over coming
shadows hunt throughout
this lovely
lovely night
running the quite
a silent
piercing scream
from the depths
of my mind
creatures of death awaken
underminding the small ones
when there the one's to fear
brush away
all the suspense
frightening as it were
battling the angery monsters
knowing they dont exist
imagination soon will be
the death iof those to weak
pick a rose
from a pretty patch
prick your figure on a thorn'
beautiful things
arent always innocent
dangerous moans of undertaking
yet
like all liven things
it dies
the tragic game of life
nothing can stay forever
the rose will wilt away
not all fearfull things come
when the darkness falls
the sunlight brings
dangerous beasts
more intimidating
for your never safe from them
bringing mere mortals
to their knees
weaking their pace
duck is when
all is calm
the moon just rising
the sun not yet gone
safely returning to home
the words still upon the paper
no more sense then before
understanding nothing else
then the darkness
and the light
creatures from imagination
more threatening
than
those that are real

Pain and figthing
the freezing cold
blood and war
a thing so old
screaming
crying
yelling for help
fire flaring deep
a whimpering yelp
running so hard
panting for breath
an unseen sword
which seals death
a golden angel
flying the skies
looking at where
evil lies
lost compassion
untold hate
love came to late

You haunt my soul
trying to escape you
screaming out
to let you go
crying these tears
trying to forget
all that you mean to me
trying to get away
from the thought of you
not knowing
you caused all my pain
you leave my thoughts
i finally escape from you